Back home.

Yesterday I got on my yoga mat for the first time in almost 6 weeks. The past couple of months have been difficult dealing with family health issues, my husband getting into an cycling accident and several other curveballs that have come our way.
My yoga mat has always felt like home. But when things got really hard for me, that was the last place I wanted to be. And I couldn’t understand why. How could I turn my back on something that I love with all my heart.
I couldn’t even bring myself to roll my mat out at home.
I wanted nothing to do with it.
At all.
I questioned it and questioned it and I just couldn’t grasp why.
Getting back on my mat I finally understand. Yoga is the one thing that truly connects me. Mind, body, heart and soul. All of it. And it connects me to everything around me. It’s what makes everything make sense. It makes time seem to not exist. It aligns every part of me and shows me my own truth. It forces me to deal with my issues and to let them go once they have taught me what I’m supposed to learn. It shows me that everything is going to be okay. No matter what.
And I guess I just didn’t want to see those things. Maybe I wasn’t ready to deal with everything yet. Maybe I didn’t want to let go. Im guilty of suppressing things way deep down and not wanting to face them in hopes that they will magically go away. When you’re caught up in your own mental thunderstorms it’s really hard to see past the pain. And to allow yourself to do the things that you know will bring you joy. It’s like we punish ourselves or something. Or maybe I’m the only one who does that.
Regardless, I am grateful for a great friend for guiding me through my practice and for Soul Yoga for always being my home.

Making SpaceĀ 

As the leaves begin to change colors, the weather becomes cooler and the days get shorter, we too are changing. Every single day we are changing physically and emotionally and this time of year is the perfect time to begin to reflect on what is and isn’t working for you.

I believe that the changing of the seasons into fall is nature’s friendly reminder to us to also begin to shed our own layers. The leaves falling from the trees is very symbolic in how we should also begin to let go of anything that is no longer serving us and make space for things that we are choosing to manifest in our lives.

The things that we may need to let go of could be physical things (weight, getting rid of clutter in our home), or maybe a false belief that we have convinced ourself of, a conversation we had with someone that is leaving us feeling heavy, an experience we didn’t enjoy or even someone negative in our lives.

Whatever it is, we can make a simple choice to allow a shift to happen within ourselves and make room for our desires to manifest and grow. It’s as easy as making a conscious decision to release the heaviness and invite creativity, inspiration, love, compassion, acceptance, peace, bliss or whatever else it is you crave into your life.

Here is a quick meditation you can do to let go and make space:

Find a comfortable seat or lie down on your back. Close your eyes and focus on whatever it is you are ready to let go of. Bring it into the forefront of your mind. Visualize it and allow yourself to really see it. Slowly begin to take the deepest inhale you can through the nostrils and pause at the top of that breath. Hold the breath for a moment and slowly release the exhale through your mouth. Do this a couple more times until you feel lighter and free.

You might even begin to repeat a mantra:

Inhale: I fill up with what I desire

Exhale: I release what I no longer need

Birthday intentionsĀ 

I’m turning 32 today. Another year older means more wrinkles and gray hairs but it also means so many more experiences. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my life and a huge part of that is that I’m more connected to myself than I’ve ever been.  I’ve found confidence and peace within myself that I didn’t even know existed. My heart is so full that sometimes I feel like it might burst. I have incredible friends that mean the world to me as well as the support from my family in every thing I do. Not to mention a husband who truly is my best friend in the entire world. He always has my back and pushes me to be the best version of myself every single day. Without him, I don’t know where I would be. 

One thing I’ve learned in the past year is that as much as I can receive love from others, I’m even more capable of giving the same love back, if not more. I can love with my whole heart and not have to hold anything back. 

My intentions for the next year are to do everything with an open mind and a full heart. 

To have more patience and compassion not just with others but myself as well.

To stay grounded and connected to my truth and march to the beat of my own drum without worrying about what others will think of me. 

To remember that we are all on our own journey and doing exactly what it is we are supposed to do, walking our own paths in our lives. Judgements I place on others only take away pieces of my own happiness.

 And at the end of the day, regardless of the highs and the lows, I can always come back to the place deep within my soul and know that everything is going to be okay. 

My favorite quote of all time is by Jack Kerouac: “Be in love with your life, every minute of it.” And that is how I intend to love each day.